I choose to see and acknowledge the pattern. Then I choose to not beat myself up for the messy reaction I most likely went into.
Being around people we care about can often trigger our patterns. Sometimes we go into immature behavior because we are hurting inside. The hurt and pain have become our playmates for decades and even a lifetime. And, now it’s the time to shift and let it go. So, if you were in reaction and feel guilty about what you said or did; acknowledge it, say sorry if you have to and then…say “thank you universe please help me let another layer go.”
I’m so sorry that I experienced what I did in my lifetime that I still expect life to dump on me, I’m sorry that I still hold onto the angry reaction and depression in me, please forgive me pattern and myself---we have lived in the dark so long I forgot our goal was to transform the dark --- I’m sorry please forgive me. I love us so much that my heart is filled with compassion for us.
I’m sorry for all the pain and conditioning we’ve been through. It’s a new day and a new do-over---I’m sorry, please forgive me, I love us---thank you for the do-over.
What will your reaction be to your old pattern? More self-flagellation or a loving do-over?