There is a part of me that believes that I have to be BEYOND miserable in a situation in order for me to leave. It doesn’t matter where or from whom I got this belief the fact remains there it is/was in ALL my remembrances.
As I quickly reflected I, also, saw how a few weeks or months prior I was being nudged to “leave” and even given opportunities to “leave” or change positions. I didn’t (the reason doesn’t matter) the behavior does---I created drama in order to leave.
Only I took my old habit with me. Decades later, I’m a bit wiser and now it just took a few weeks for me to see the sign and plan my exit. Am I leaving for an ideal situation, NO---I am leaving with awareness and determination to create what I do desire and this new situation will provide the space I need.
NOW, I finally “get it”----Gratitude---if I had been GRATEFUL instead of resentful for the “drama” I CREATED I’d be further along on my journey. I am GRATEFUL I heard the call and am grateful the universe chose to squeeze me for only a few weeks before I dove into action to extricate myself. I AM grateful for my moments of compression.
I thought by doing nothings I wouldn’t screw things up more---quite the contrary---I did mess it up more---I held onto resentment and anger. Thank you past, present and this moments of awareness. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you---I release you with gratitude. I let go of looking down the “what-might-have-been road” and now embrace the “what-can-I-create-now road.” It was a lesson hard-learned.
Will you shift your point of view today enough to say “Thank you” for whatever shows up, and then ask “how can I allow myself to accept and extricate myself today?”