I’ve been praying to have my impatience, worry, doubt, stress and in general “all” my irritating and limiting beliefs and behaviors removed and transformed. Silly-goose-me, they can’t be cleared if they don’t come up to test me.
I’m always at choice and whine when the opportunity for growth presents itself. WOW, talk about wanting it now--- am I a powerful manifester or what?
I asked to have it all cleared and I sure am getting a platter full and it simply won’t ease up for two seconds. Being alone it’s hard to remind myself that I asked for this and only I can choose the solution.
To choose patience, easy, comfort, joy, love and prosperity--- I don’t quite have the template for that yet. I am grateful that I do have my tools and the emotional support of so many friends.
It’s a process and I sure hope I win.
KC: Even though I asked to have all my defects removed. I didn’t think it would be this hard. I accept responsibility and love myself anyway.
KC: Even though my greatest sin is impatience and in my impatience I asked for a massive healing. I admit I’m whining and that change comes after acceptance. I accept I created all this and I love and accept myself anyway.
KC: Even though I’m complaining about my challenges I do acknowledge that the universal laws require “tests”--- that’s why the stuff comes up. I honor and respect this even if I don’t like it.
EB: What was I thinking?
SE: I wasn’t thinking
UE: I just wanted to shift out of my old patterns
UN: I keep letting myself get sucked back into the mental drama
CH: I keep forgetting to BREATHE
CB: Birth and death are not easy
UA: I have to battle my way out of this cocoon
TH: What was I thinking?
EB: I was thinking that since I had struggled so much in life that if I asked--- my prayers would be answered
SE: I was thinking easy and effortless
UE: It is but my darn EGO does NOT like change
UN: It’s holding onto the old way
CH: I want the part of me that wants easy and at least eloquent to win
CB: I must keep reminding myself that when I slip--- to love myself through the slip
UA: I love how brave I am to face all this
TH: Even though I brought it on myself
EB: I can see in a way I never could before how we bring on these struggles to move us into gratitude and appreciation
SE: For the next 3 weeks I am safe and have a roof over my head
UE: I have friends to pray for
UN: I have a computer that allows me to look for work and shelter
CH: I have my “A-team” around me even if I can’t “see” them
CB: I choose to start letting it be easier
UA: I want that part to win
TH: I will keep loving myself no matter how many times I slip
Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth- ahhhh
CB: I’m sorry, please forgive me, I love you, thank you. I’m sorry, please forgive me, I love you.