A Tapping Journey - Shift Wide Open

Worthy and Deserving of Love

1/31/2011

As the tip emerges the roots grow deep---use diffuse awareness

KC: Even though I’ve been focusing on the tip of my plant and projecting into the future. I acknowledge that the roots are also growing and love that about myself.
KC: Even though I was obsessing on the blossom that will show itself to others I forgot about the root system.
KC: Even though I can’t see the roots I acknowledge they are there and continue to send them tapping love to help them grow as well.

EB: the roots of Worthy and Deserving reaching deep into the mother earth
SE: giving her my pain, shame, blame, and guilt
UE: she in return gives me love, mercy, compassion and forgiveness
UN: Reaching down, down, down to soak up the good vibrations
CH: growing stronger and stronger
CB: feeling grounded, centered and in the moment
UA: trusting the process
TH: going deep into my essence

EB: I’ll be unshakable if I send love to my roots
SE: I’ll be okay with whatever happens when I blossom
UE: I never thought about my roots
UN: Connected to Source
CH: Divinely guided
CB: Loved and nurtured by the Divine and myself
UA: Yep, I supply the willingness
TH: And Source supplies the rest

EB: oh, the roots are getting thicker and darker and longer
SE: holding onto mother earth
UE: sending everything I need into the tiny shoot winding it’s way up to the light
UN: sending messages of love and support
CH: sending messages of gratitude down into mother earth
CB: grounded in gratitude and appreciation
UA: what a great symbiosis
TH: Birthing the right way this time

Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth- ahhhh

CB: This time I’m marinating in love sprinkled with gratitude, appreciation and bearing abundance--- abundance of Worthiness and Deserving.

Worthy and Deserving of Love

1/28/2011

Do I detect a crack? Ahhh, possibilities.

KC: Even though the shell is softened I admit I’m scared of what will emerge---I love myself anyway.
KC: Even though I want to change and not be held captive by the past I’m afraid of the new me. I honor the conflict and love myself anyway.
KC: Even though I don’t know how people will react to me---I may loose people close to me---I have to honor the conundrum and love myself anyway.

EB: They won’t like me
SE: They’ll try to change me back
UE: I won’t be strong enough
UN: Don’t crack open shell I’m scared
CH: WHY?
CB: You’ve been watering me in love
UA: Love is strong and resilient like the willow tree
TH: Have faith in yourself

EB: But I don’t
SE: Yes, you do
UE: You’ve been loving yourself all week by tapping
UN: You are worthy and deserving of blossoming already
CH: because you tended to and committed to yourself and changing
CB: You will grow slow and steady and easy and effortlessly
UA: I will
TH: Yes, You can Embrace Success

EB: Let the shell crack
SE: See the tiny green stem start to poke its tip out
UE: like a little feeler
UN: It’s okay---send it love and tenderness
CH: Oh, how cute and precious
CB: Don’t tell anyone just yet
UA: let it grow in your heart a bit more so you get used to it
TH: Slow and steady, easy and effortless

Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth- ahhhh

UE: Easy and effortless- see how magical it is----see how precious--- its You Embracing Success--- successfully manifesting “worthiness and deserving”---good job

Now go outside and have some FUN this weekend and tap ---just because

Worthy and Deserving of Love

1/27/2011

Time?!?!?!?!

KC: Even though I’m short on patience even with my “miracle grow” I acknowledge that even tapping releases the toxic energies over a 24 hour period.
KC: Even though I want a miracle cure I acknowledge that it took years to get me to this point; and that each tapping session will aide in my growth.
KC: Even though I can be short on patience --- as I tap I grow in patience---what a great by-product!

EB: releasing layers and layers of trauma each time I tap
SE: sinking deeper and deeper into my core
UE: softening and washing away years of pain, shame, guilt, and blame
UN: releasing and letting go
CH: growing in patience
CB: getting in touch with what my garden needs
UA: loving my garden
TH: tending to me

EB: taking the time to love and tend to my recovery
SE: patiently loving myself
UE: patiently knowing that time will lesson the grip of past behaviors and beliefs
UN: letting go of the fear of who I’ll be when I blossom
CH: setting the intention to accept the miracle of me that is being birthed
CB: tending to my garden with love and nurturing
UA: lavishing love on myself
TH: getting the nurturing I never had before

EB: because I deserve it
SE: every garden deserves a loving caretaker
UE: I AM my caretaker
UN: I’m doing such a great job
CH: Who knew it could be so easy
CB: Loving myself
UA: Tending to my seed of “worthiness and deserving”
TH: I’m so proud of myself

Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth- ahhhh

CB: Giving myself a little act of kindness everyday. Because I AM Worth It!

Worthy and Deserving of Love

1/26/2011

Once the seed is planted then what?

Time, love and tenderness---

KC: Even though I messed up in the past loving myself I acknowledge that I didn’t have the needed tools to weed out the weeds. I love that I have a tapping tool to help me love myself.
KC: Even though I tried other “modalities” before and they only partially helped. I acknowledge that I can tap anywhere and any time and that just might help me love and accept myself.
KC: Even though I never seem to have the time I can tap out the negative feelings even in the grocery line. I can tap on just one point and let my feelings transmute.

EB: Tapping on any point
SE: just letting the feeling ooze from any point
UE: Letting go of the ghosts of past failures
UN: Taking the time to invest in me
CH: I’m worth tending to this garden
CB: Tapping is my “Miracle Grow”
UA: Softening the touch shell around the seed
TH: It’s softening

EB: Letting go of the hard exterior
SE: Letting the moisture of forgiveness into my soul
UE: Letting go of the blame, shame, guilt, and pain
UN: Letting in the healing elixir soften my here-to-fore hard exterior
CH: Willing to forgive myself for hurting myself and others
CB: Willing to forgive others for hurting me
UA: It doesn’t mean I need to be around them I just need to let it go
TH: I’m sorry we were both in such pain that we all hurt each other

EB: It’s time to graduate and grow into a worthy and deserving person
SE: I aced misery, shame, blame, self-loathing, and other negative lessons
UE: Now I want to ace love, mercy, compassion and forgiveness
UN: It starts by tending to myself; and letting go of the pain
CH: Who knew tears could be so positive
CB: Who knew tears could carry a happy and positive vibration
UA: Tears- To Embrace All Rough-Spots
TH: To tenderly let them wash away my pain

Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth- ahhhh

UE: Letting them soften me. Even dry tears--- it’s just the intention to let go and soften. Ahhhh, softening because I’m worth it!

Worthy and Deserving of LOVE

1/25/2011

There are several areas in which if I am entirely honest I don’t quite feel worthy and deserving. I could spend hours and have spent hours on tapping in these areas.

Yet, every so often another layer emerges. Yea! I get to tap some more.

To day let’s look at worthy and deserving of love.

KC: Even though I clearly got the message growing up that I wasn’t worthy and deserving of love I acknowledge the pain and love how my spirit never gave up.
KC: Even though I told myself for years that I was unlovable ---I acknowledge I was repeating a behavior and belief that I was “pickled-in” while growing up. Today I love and accept myself no matter what.
KC: Even though I spent decades thinking love was elusive and someone had to GIVE it to me. I love that I can now see through that illusion and deeply and profoundly love and accept myself.

EB: You are worthless
SE: NO one will ever love you
UE: God doesn’t even love you
UN: You aren’t worthy of love
CH: I hate you
CB: I started hating myself
UA: The pain, the shame, the guilt
TH: All the guilt

EB: How can I forgive myself
SE: How can I feel deserving
UE: How can I KNOW I am worthy and deserving
UN: Nature loves me
CH: The sun still warms my face
CB: I’m still breathing
UA: I can feel love, mercy, compassion, and forgiveness for others
TH: There is goodness in my heart

EB: If I was not worthy and deserving I would not have those attributes
SE: I can start feeling and accepting that I am worthy and deserving of love
UE: I’m sorry, please forgive me for ever hating you my precious one
UN: I’m sorry, I really am---I didn’t mean to hurt you
CH: I Know and I still love you
CB: Letting the hurt go
UA: Letting the love grow
TH: the seeds of love growing

Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth- ahhhh

CB: Watering the seeds with my tears. Letting go the shame, guilt, pain, and blame. Letting love take root.

Worthy and Deserving

1/24/2011

I came into this life to experience several things--- two of the feelings I came to play with were and are feelings of worthiness and feeling deserving.

How about you---do you have issues about these two aspects of your personality? I thought I’d spend some time both of these. Come join me.

KC: Even though I came into experience not feeling worthy and deserving I choose to realize that I have definitely aced that course and am ready to love myself and graduate.
KC: Even though I keep thinking I have to demote myself and languish in feelings of unworthiness and that I don’t deserve money, love, and bliss among others---I choose to graduate and learn to love myself.
KC: Even though I notice my body caving in and my voice reverting to little girl tones I choose to graduate and realize I am worthy and deserving.

EB: Born unworthy and tossed about
SE: being told I didn’t deserve anything
UE: being told I was unworthy
UN: believing these teachers
CH: that was the school curriculum I came to master
CB: WOW--- I got straight A’s in “unworthiness and not-deserving” classes
UA: Every year and everyday I got “A+’s”
TH: I’m the best student ever

EB: I don’t want to enroll in “worthy and deserving” classes
SE: I like getting “A’s”
UE: I might not succeed in feeling worthy and deserving
UN: My body won’t know how to stand, sit, or speak
CH: I’ll have to take responsibility
CB: I’ll have to set boundaries
UA: I’ll have to ask for what I need
TH: Because worthy and deserving people know HOW to take care of themselves

EB: I really admire the people who do know they are worthy and deserving
SE: I can think about enrolling
UE: Heck---I’m humble enough to admit I’ll make some mistakes
UN: It’s just a belief I took on to experience
CH: I can change my belief
CB: Choosing to play with the belief that I’m worthy and deserving
UA: Choosing to play with that idea
TH: Signing up to take advanced classes in the human experience from the experience of feeling worthy and deserving

Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth- ahhhh

CB: I’m ready to move into “worthy and deserving”--- That is why I’m here—after one lesson is mastered then you ARE to move onto and into the experience of the reverse---to feel WORTHY and DESERVING--- this is going to be an exciting journey!

fear of success

1/21/2011

What if everything works out in my favor? What if I can create a happy ending? How will people react to me? How will I relate to them?

I don’t know about you but that sometimes throws me into that wishy-washy state and I fail to take action. For me it boils down to fear.

KC: Even though I want things to work out what if people don’t like the new me---I have to honor that fear and love myself anyway.
KC: Even though I can’t control how others will react to me I have to acknowledge that I have judgments around people with money. I humbly accept that about myself and love myself because of it.
KC: Even though I don’t like to admit I don’t relate to people with money and judge them I honor that this is a great opportunity for me to tap this away over time.

EB: People won’t like me
SE: They’ll want my money
UE: They’ll use me
UN: I’ll only have superficial people to hang out with
CH: I’ll be lonely
CB: What will I have in common with my old friends
UA: I won’t relate to their troubles
TH: They will abandon me

EB: too many fears
SE: maybe I just won’t try to succeed
UE: it’s safe that way
UN: I’ll fit in with the struggling story
CH: people expect me to be a looser
CB: I’ll just keep struggling
UA: WHAT!?!?!
TH: What if you inspired your friends

EB: What if you had enough money to sponsor people
SE: What if you had enough money to hire people
UE: What if you had enough money to treat your friends to a good meal at your home
UN: What if you made the difference in someone’s life and they found happiness
CH: It’s selfish not to succeed
CB: It’s worse then being a stingy-rich person
UA: You’ll be the same loving person but with boundaries
TH: You need to work on boundaries anyway

Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth- ahhhh

CB: Don’t confuse the issues. Money in the hands of an honorable person with authentic boundaries is inspiring! It’s okay to be successful.

resentment

1/20/2011

Were you ever forced to change who you were? It can lead to resentment, insecurity, and feelings of powerlessness, self-worth and more.

You can substitute your issue or borrow benefits.

KC: Even though I was naturally left handed I was forced to write right handed and was powerless over the authority figures in my life. I love and accept myself now and how creative I was.
KC: Even though I was accused of being the “devil’s-spawn” because I was “different” I love and accept myself anyway.
KC: Even though I’m now ambidextrous I still feel less-than and a part of me is bitter and I feel guilty for not standing up for myself. I acknowledge I did the best I could given my age and circumstances.

EB: I don’t want to write right handed
SE: It doesn’t feel comfortable
UE: I’m not evil
UN: I’m just 4 years old
CH: I’m not the devil’s-spawn
CB: I don’t know what that means
UA: I don’t feel good about myself
TH: I can’t stop crying

EB: It doesn’t feel right
SE: I don’t want to change
UE: Don’t force and hurt me
UN: I’ll be sneaky and do things the way I want when I’m alone
CH: I have to be me
CB: I did the best I could to hold onto me
UA: I know it was hard
TH: I know I HAD to change to survive

EB: What a brave little girl you were
SE: You retained a part of you no matter what
UE: Tap into that spirit of victory
UN: The victory of spirit to not abandone your true self
CH: Way to go
CB: I’m so proud of you
UA: What a resilient child
TH: What a creative child

Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth- ahhhh

UE: no bitterness just victory of spirit. They didn’t kill my spirit like I thought they did. What a miracle I AM!

facing an old fear

1/19/2011

I was attacked by a dog years ago and landed in the hospital and had to have several stitches. The emotional scare ran deeper than the physical one. I was out and about---do my shifting work.

A HUGE angry dog kept trying to jump the fence to “get” me. My heart was pounding and the fear was right in my face. I was at choice---panic, give into the fear, cry---what?!?!?!? So often “something” can re-stimulate us. It’s what we do at that moment.

KC: Event though I want to run and there is no one to help me I choose to remember that I am not alone and that it will be okay. I love and acknowledge how much courage it takes to stay calm; and to remember I am okay in this exact moment.
KC: Even though the dog could leap that fence any second and attack me--- in this moment I’m okay. I choose to remember I am not alone and that whatever happens is for my highest and best good.
KC: Even though I’m flashing back to that prior attack this doesn’t have to end the same way. I’ve come along way in my personal growth since then. I’m not the same “victim” as I was back then.

EB: That is a huge dog
SE: There is no one around to help me
UE: I’ll get killed if he gets me
UN: My heart is racing
CH: I feel trapped
CB: I’m not alone
UA: My team is around me
TH: I’m safe right this second

EB: Walk slow but steadily on
SE: Remember you are not alone
UE: I am safe and loved this time
UN: I will be okay
CH: I am loved
CB: I am safe
UA: The air is warmer around me
TH: I feel safe

EB: I don’t hear the dog
SE: I am okay
UE: I can walk through my fears
UN: I can remember I am safe in the moment
CH: I didn’t know I could calmly walk through my fear
CB: What a gift
UA: What a miracle
TH: Thank you

Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth- ahhhh

CB: Perhaps I can apply this lesson to other areas of my life. What if I can walk though the fear and know I AM not alone. Hummmm.

buried stage of development

1/18/2011

I’ve noticed that as I grow and expand that old buried traits surface that perhaps were never allowed to grow. Yep, 4 year old behavior—that part that wanted to be seen, acknowledged and allowed to bask in the spotlight.

The little kid who will jump up and down and does whatever to divert attention from others to them selves when it is not appropriate. Who interrupts and tugs at your skirt hem. No, it’s not pretty but understandable. My heart smiles knowingly—she was never allowed to go through that “cute-embarrassing” stage.

KC: Even though I don’t like this aspect of myself I acknowledge that that part of me has been starving for attention; and I choose to show compassion for myself.
KC: Even though I’ve stepped on the toes of others; and I tend to beat myself up for it. I choose to understand and forgive myself for being human.
KC: Even though I’m not as aware and evolved as I would like I embrace my humanness and choose to love myself.

EB: Me, Me, Me---look at me
SE: Don’t talk to her
UE: Notice and listen to me
UN: It’s all about ME
CH: Listen to ME
CB: I want to shine
UA: I want you to see me and adore me
TH: I’m just a little kid inside can’t you see that

EB: sweetie they can’t see that
SE: they can only see the adult body and the child-like behavior
UE: I see you though
UN: I love how you can’t wait to show and be grown-up
CH: I’m so proud of you
CB: It’s okay to be excited and proud
UA: It’s a process to learn to channel it in an adult fashion
TH: It’s called passion for your work

EB: Take all the desire to shine and pour it into what your life’s work is about
SE: I can do that?
UE: Yes, it’s safe and I’m here to support you
UN: Take that unbounded exuberance and pour it into your passions
CH: Love yourself for slipping
CB: Love yourself for being human
UA: Love yourself for growing up
TH: You never got to shine before and I’m so proud of you

Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth- ahhhh

CB: It doesn’t take years to grow up---it only takes a soul-felt acknowledgment of the child-like behavior. I see you and love you my precious one.