Yet, every so often another layer emerges. Yea! I get to tap some more.
To day let’s look at worthy and deserving of love.
KC: Even though I clearly got the message growing up that I wasn’t worthy and deserving of love I acknowledge the pain and love how my spirit never gave up.
KC: Even though I told myself for years that I was unlovable ---I acknowledge I was repeating a behavior and belief that I was “pickled-in” while growing up. Today I love and accept myself no matter what.
KC: Even though I spent decades thinking love was elusive and someone had to GIVE it to me. I love that I can now see through that illusion and deeply and profoundly love and accept myself.
EB: You are worthless
SE: NO one will ever love you
UE: God doesn’t even love you
UN: You aren’t worthy of love
CH: I hate you
CB: I started hating myself
UA: The pain, the shame, the guilt
TH: All the guilt
EB: How can I forgive myself
SE: How can I feel deserving
UE: How can I KNOW I am worthy and deserving
UN: Nature loves me
CH: The sun still warms my face
CB: I’m still breathing
UA: I can feel love, mercy, compassion, and forgiveness for others
TH: There is goodness in my heart
EB: If I was not worthy and deserving I would not have those attributes
SE: I can start feeling and accepting that I am worthy and deserving of love
UE: I’m sorry, please forgive me for ever hating you my precious one
UN: I’m sorry, I really am---I didn’t mean to hurt you
CH: I Know and I still love you
CB: Letting the hurt go
UA: Letting the love grow
TH: the seeds of love growing
Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth- ahhhh
CB: Watering the seeds with my tears. Letting go the shame, guilt, pain, and blame. Letting love take root.